Ten

So I was reading through my daily blogs today, while Travis was asleep from his awful wisdom tooth extraction, and saw that each one of the girls made a list of 10 things that make them happy. I got really excited, I have way more than 10 things, but I thought it would be fun to join them.

No particular order

#1. My smart, sexy, patient, incredible, loving boyfriend. I am 100% the luckiest woman in the world. Every time he walks into any store, restaurant, bar girls notice him. Why? Because he's (cliche) tall, dark, handsome, blue eyes, and incredible style. Those were also the first things that drew me towards him. That and his knowledge, sarcasm, dry humor, and education. Oh, and his interest in serial killers :) Not only is he that, he has been the biggest part of my recovery process. He does such an amazing job even when I'm a total bitch and take issues out on him. It's amazing how I fall in love with him more each day. But seriously, I do. And I'm so sad he is in pain from his poor tooth :(

#2. Oliver! Our newest addition (well first) to our lives. This little baby kitty has been so great to hang out with. What I notice the most? Besides his squeeks, hic-ups, sneezes, meows, that he sits and meows and watches me get ready. That used to be the WORST most CRITICAL part of my day, It would take me forever because that's when the thoughts were the worst. Now, I'm preoccupied by this little man staring up at me meowing and climbing on the sink. How great is that? Also, I absolutely am in love seeing Travis and Oliver snuggling. My heart melts.

#3. D&D. Yes, I have entered the nerd world through Travis. And guess what? It's so much fun. It's like real life Lord of the Rings. It has also allowed us to share one day a week with great friends, fun, and fun smoothie making (on my behalf). It's something we all look forward to and I am blessed to have met such rad people.

#4. Going out! I love getting all dressed up with Travis and going out. We look like a million bucks when we do (well always) and I have so much fun just sitting somewhere with him and all our friends. I even don't regret if we sometimes order pizza and breadsticks and then eat the whole thing that night....I wouldn't trade those nights for the world.

#5. Staying in! Alas, his relaxation has rubbed off on me, at least more than I used to. I do love very much snuggling up on the couch or nest chair in sweats and watching a movie. Accompanied with movie snacks, popcorn, or just Oliver. 9 times out of 10 I will always ask him to tuck me in and he does. It's my favorite part of the night.

#6. Weekly drinks with my mom! This has been such a new adventure for me and our relationship has gotten so so much better because of it. My parents now feel like my parents, not my critics. It's so nice to have their love and support and feel that instead of their judgement. They have also been a great part of my recovery process and I enjoy very much catching up and learning what amazing people they are.

#7. My job! My job really does make me happy. I love my schedule, my boss, my commitment to work, the value I take in it, and making guests happy. Sure some days suck, but it's more of a few hours will suck. I am so lucky to have a full time job, where I'm the oldest one there, get free snacks (if I can get enough balls to eat them) from the Bistro, work with great people, make dog treats and cookies and get cash for it, and that I work next door to Travis. Who would have though?

#8. Food! Hot food makes me happy. Even if I can only get enough courgae to eat it one or two times a week, it's always a very private happy time for me. Sometimes I feel like I should do it in secret or am ashamed to do it. But I hope to one day be able to eat hot food anytime anywhere without any hesitation.

#9. My fabulous friends! I love my friends, so much. I love that they have stuck around with me through all of my reclusivness, my sickness, my relapse, and still send me the most heartfelt texts, emails, hugs, you name it. They truely are amazing, genuine people. And I hope I can be that for them.

#10. My life. I know I am so lucky. I love my life. It makes me feel really great to know that the only shitty part is my eating disorder. BEcause I know this will pass and I will beat it. The possibilities afterwards blow my mind. Eeee!

Okay, well it's about 4:10, I am meeting my mom at 5 for some catching up before she goes to Vegas next week.