Bloggity-Blog

So everyday at work I go through my list of blogs that I read. I start with 'Ed Bites' for any interesting research done recently on eating disorders, then move to Kim's blog 'Adventures in Wanting' I then move to (I think the most inspirational for me) 'Bearing, Eating, Being' then onto 'Building Beauty Beyond Body', which today I had to laugh out loud about how similar we all are. Her post today is http://buildingbeautybeyondbody.blogspot.com/ About the inevitable purge of 'anorexic clothes' Those clothes in the closet that stare at you saying 'You better not gain any weight or you won't fit into me, thus you have failed and lost control.'

I have done pretty well, especially with my tops purging the bad ones. I have a lovely new selection of tops, including a long brown sleeve from Nordstroms, 2 great striped blue and green sweaters, and an amazing soft new sweater from Travis. I even bought a new tank top (not size XS) and I enjoy it very much. I even got new bras to accentuate my 'up and coming boobs' I did buy a new pair of jeans that I wear pretty often when we go out. I'm still pretty nervous about then but am trying to admire the 'butt' I have aquired due to weight gain. I even have 2 new sweater dresses which are pretty comfortable for me to wear.

What struck me tonight reading her blog was she has also been going through her closet and came to her underwear. Gosh I could write about THIS forever. She got rid of all of her tiny panties and took pictures of them in the trash. I thought that was wonderful. I have thrown a few of mine away over the last month or so, but somehow I still have some that are lurking around that I know are too small and are triggers for me if I try to wear them. I have stuck to pretty much the new ones I have bought, but need need need to get rid of the other ones sooner rather than later.

Just funny that she wrote about that. When I thought I was the only one terrified of my underwear drawer. Gah. It's seriously time to start looking like a woman not a 13 year old boy.

Travis has been wonderful about telling me how good I look. I'm trying so so hard to believe him and let myself enjoy the (big breath)...'curves' Such a scary word. I have also been getting more compliments at work. Baller.