Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Defensive
I went to see my lady today and she had (the dreaded) scary look on her face. She said how well i've done and how I 'pushed through the holidays.' But that she's scared for me. I am just so tired of that. I gained 12 pounds, I'm sure I've gained more the last two weeks. My body is evening out and for what seems like the millionth time I have told people, I have never been over 100 pounds. My body was always just there between 98 and 102 at the most, for the end of high school through college (pre eating disorder). So I am just so tired hearing them ask me (like they don't know) how tall I am, yes I am 5'4 I have been since high school. Well the BMI says...Yes I know what it says. But it doesnt take into consideration tons of things. My mom told me ever since I was little I was always under what I 'should' be for my age/height. But always healthy. I was and have always been petite. How many pictures do I need to show people before they believe me? I am tired because it seems like nothing is going to convince anyone. Except for once, my parents. It's just frustrating.
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