Confusion

I came up with this brilliant plan, well Travis did, and I talked to my lady about it this week and she thought it was wonderful too. I wrote about it, how we would go to a restaurant and I would leave while he ordered me something that I would be too afraid to on my own right now. Anyway, great idea.

So we sort of planned it for Friday, but it got late and we ended up going home. I had my bowl of cereal, which I do love and we hung out. Great night, and yes I was relieved about not going to dinner. Granted, due to our late schedules the earliest we could do this adventure would be 11. This is a really scary thing for me and I would rather not do it at midnight or 1. So then we planned sort of to do it tonight, Saturday.

I'm not sure if we are still going. I haven't mentioned it, I'm not sure if it was still going to happen. My sick side of me has made me not really fully commit and mention it or say 'Hey we're going to NYP tonight' instead I have been tip toeing around it. Inner battles are gay. But tonight at work we got free sushi and free apple cobbler. I have picked at the apple cobbler (okay, only the apples in it) and I haven't had sushi yet because I wasn't sure if we were going out after or not (gah). I have a little to go box with stuff in it. I'm torn. Truly. Torn and CRAZY.

Whatever happens, happens. It won't be the end of the world. I have my whole life to go out and eat normal food. If I end up eating cereal and bananas tonight then I'm okay with that, because I really do enjoy my coconut vanilla milk :) And MAYBE just MAYBE I would have a piece of sushi and some apple cobbler....

Sad face.
But on another note. Today was pretty good, busy at work, went by pretty fast and feel good. Tomorrow is my last day!!!!!!!! YAH then 2 days off. I cannot wait.

How about some of these for good measure
:)