Mild Frustration

So I went to my lady today and brought pictures of me at different times to show her that I have always been petite. One is with all the girls at Autumn's wedding. That's my normal weight, that's where my body evened out at and where I felt comfortable and able to do hella things, because we did a ton of stuff that spring/summer/fall. ANYWAY, she looks at it and says "Those girls are a lot bigger than you" I was like, yes they are, they are tall and I am petite so obviously it's going to make me look even smaller. After looking at them she tells me, with this look on her that's awful, " I want to get you healthier" I was like? Well, here's the thing. At that weight (which is where I am almost at) I competed with Ozzie in shows, ran 5K's, went on adventures, went to class full time, blah, blah. I have never (through even my lowest weight) had vitals that weren't normal.

So anyway, I guess I am frustrated because even though I am still struggling with the mental part of it, physically my body is working great. I am just tired of being looked at (Still) like I am 78 pounds. I'm never going to be 120 and I wish they would just get off that.

Rant. Ugh. Boo.

Anyway. On a better note. I have Thanksgiving off!!! Yipee! Which means I get to go down with Travis and see his family! I'm so excited, last year was so great, and I can't wait to be down there since I know them so much more now!! I work at 3 the next day, but that should be fine. So I'm happy. Yes, I am nervous about the food. That's a given, but take it as it comes right?

Last night I ate 2 GROSS Lean Cuisines and just wanted to say, I feel AWFUL for people who eat those or have to eat those or feel like those things are the only things they can eat. For one, they are TINY, they are so so gross. I had just forgotten how bad microwave food is. HOWEVER their paninis are fabulous. Okay done, suck it Lean Cuisine.

My anxiety is still up. But I am better at working through it.

Yesterday Travis and I went to the mall to look at all the Christmas stuff and I got these AMAZING blue sparkly balls!! Love them. It was a really great day.

Ummmm, I have 6 days in a row until next one off. That's okay, I am going to work on balance this week. Alsooooo, oh I don't know. I'm sure I'll have more to rant about at a later date.