I went to my lady yesterday and when I walked in she said, "Whatever you're doing, keep it up, it's working." I had many mixed emotions towards this. Anger, fear, relief, happiness, anxiety, etc. My weight gain...however much it is...I feel like it's a lot...I don't want to guess a number out of fear, so I won't. It is due in thanks to A. Pizza B. Alcohol C. Ranch Room. So, sure it works.
I was just in a quiet daze here at work for a minute. Staring across the lobby, puffing my stomach out, touching it with my left hand, having a fake distant smile on my face. That's what happens when I have nothing to do and zone out, that's when ED comes in the picture. Rrrrr. Those are the times when the thoughts, guilt, regret come.
But! I am out of it now. So there.
Tomorrow me and Travis are going down to Auburn to stay with his mom and spend Thanksgiving down there. I cannot wait. I'm so happy I was able to get Thurs and Friday off to spend with him. A mini vacation. Excellent.
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