I think I am starting to accept parts of my changing body. I still am desperately clinging to other aspects as well. But, I think, I am starting to get used to it. I am trying at least. I go get weighed today after work. I am terrified. I decided I'm not going to look and if Sue tells me I will say something, mean.

I am in a haze today. I really miss Travis. I miss going out to dinner, going to movies, going on adventures. I really hope I get those days of the week off so we can do those things. He's perfect. He's so amazing. I am so lucky.