So my lady talked to me this week about identifying my anxiety, when it starts, what's causing it etc. Right now my anxiety level (from 1-10, 10 being really bad) I would say I am an 8. I feel like I can't really breathe. So, what do I think is causing this?
1. I'm wearing a new skirt that is tight and I feel honest to god fucking huge in.
2. I am still losing my mind over eating 1 1/2 bowls of cereal last night and 3 tablespoons of ice cream.
3. I feel guilty for not going on a jog on Tuesday.
This blows. I recognize where it is coming from and immediately I just fixate on my body. I had a mini melt down on Monday night. I ranted on and on how much I loathe my body. Granted, these are not constant feelings. My good thoughts out weigh my bad ones, but I still have these really drastic feelings from time to time.
FUCK. I just want to embrace my WOMANLY body and love my curves. I don't know what to do with them. I don't know how to walk or show off my new body. I'm so scared.
Gah. Guess I'll go in the back and watch the puppies online. Mine is the white one, I have named him Snowball. He will be the greatest.
1. I'm wearing a new skirt that is tight and I feel honest to god fucking huge in.
2. I am still losing my mind over eating 1 1/2 bowls of cereal last night and 3 tablespoons of ice cream.
3. I feel guilty for not going on a jog on Tuesday.
This blows. I recognize where it is coming from and immediately I just fixate on my body. I had a mini melt down on Monday night. I ranted on and on how much I loathe my body. Granted, these are not constant feelings. My good thoughts out weigh my bad ones, but I still have these really drastic feelings from time to time.
FUCK. I just want to embrace my WOMANLY body and love my curves. I don't know what to do with them. I don't know how to walk or show off my new body. I'm so scared.
Gah. Guess I'll go in the back and watch the puppies online. Mine is the white one, I have named him Snowball. He will be the greatest.
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