I can't believe that it is September 13th already. The leaves have already started turning and it's crisp out. Pumpkins are filling up grocery stores and browns, oranges, and reds are everywhere. These things make me feel relaxed. It's almost like everything slows down a little more in the fall.
It's 9:39 and I'm at work. Almost time to go home and I am looking forward to putting on Travis' warm giant fleece, washing my face, and crawling into the couch bed with him to most likely fall asleep after only being 20 minutes into an X-Files episode. That to me, is the perfect night. The perfect night/day/evening/outing always involves him.
Letting myself enjoy time, space, feelings, scenery has become difficult but a part of me can feel it coming back. I can feel parts of me coming back. Even though it has taken me a while. I am letting go in small ways and one day I will wake up and just 'be.'
To 'be' in the moment is something I desire each day. To be mindful. Really feel things around me.
Let go. Let go. Breathe.
I am so lucky to have the most amazing friends, boyfriend, family, life it just amazes me each day to be able to fall asleep with such love around me.
I had part of a quesadilla today, a bite of chocolate cake, part of a cupcake, and some cheese. This is on top of my normal food. So yes. This was good. I have a tummy ache right now and want to go to sleep but that's still good right?
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