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2:41 and I just got back from a walk to pick flowers. I think it's important to always have flowers in your home. They make me smile. I had a great/hard weekend. My amazing boyfriend treated me two nights to New York Pizza and food. The first night I was tipsy enough to say yes to an appetizer, it was so great. Artichoke dip with crustini bread. Then I ordered for myself the chicken caesar salad and it came with garlic bread. I ate one of the breads and devoured the salad. It was so good. The chicken was so hot and actually good and it was just perfect. The next day I felt good too. Which is important to remember. Last night we went to Honey Moon and back to NYP and I got the small salad, which was so good, but I think too much dressing that made me feel a little ill, maybe because I ate quite a bit of fries. The fried food late at night is so good, but it is for sure what makes me have an upset stomach the next day.

Nevertheless. Look at that, two days of eating, eating the way I normally would. So props to that. I am so lucky to have him. He is so incredibly supportive and knows when to push at just the right times. I can't wait to take him out to lunch. And to go to breakfast! Ah! Unheard of!

Today, I am taking a me day. It's beautiful out and my walk was nice. It was nice to look around. I go see the nutritionist at 4 and hope that goes well, more importantly I just hope it goes fast. After that I'm not sure what I'm going to go do. Low key. I want to watch some girly movies tonight. I am stopping by at the parents to hang out with my mom for a little bit, after that though, painting my toes, nails, and face mask! Much needed.

I got my entire work schedule up until mid August, and I actually got some great hours. I will also know on Friday if I got the job at Haggen, fingers are crossed. I need something to sort of jump me out of this comfort zone, and a new job will do that, terrifies me, but I need it. I am dropping by Taco Lobo tomorrow too because they are hiring, who knows right?

I think I am most excited to eat popcorn tonight while I watch movies :) Not sure what I'm going to put on it, but that little machine makes me so excited. I am massively craving fruit and yogurt too, from drinking. Something nice and easy on my stomach is key right now.

I can't believe it's July! The 4th is Saturday and I work til 6, and have reservations at Hearthfire with Autumn at 7:45. That should be nice and low key and I'm so glad I get to see her. More is needed. Also, July 17-19 we are going camping in eastern washington. I got Paper Dreams covered, we'll see what happens if I get another job. But so far, it's a go. Terrifies me because of the loss of control over food, but it will be SO good for me. I mean christ, it's camping, relaxe, and I will and am so excited to just be dirty, eat smores, sun bathe, etc. Liberating.

Then by that time it will be time to start packing! Gah! Move in August 1st! Crazy excited. Then the next week is our trip to Portland. This is why I neeeeed this job, to have some fucking money for these things.

That's all for now. I feel meh. I know, realistically I am good, and I am trying to ignore these crazy thoughts that are just mean. I am the only person that is mean to me. Funny really.