Hard

Yesterday was hard. I felt so awful in my body. I felt foreign and it brought me down all day and all night. There were brief moments of clarity but not many.

Today I feel like I have a cold, I didn't go running because of that and of course it stacks on top of me loathing my body.

I'm hunched over right now with a pillow in my lap while Oliver is sitting on my bag. I'm dreading putting on work clothes. Thinking maybe wearing my pants instead of skirt.

:( I'm weepy which doesn't help either.