Waves

That's the best way I can describe how I've been feeling lately. I will have waves of distorted thoughts which spurs the anxiety then can spiral out from there. Then I'll have days or a week of feeling just fine. Even, dare I say it, good about my body?

I could wear the exact same outfit during each of these opposite waves and feel completely different. I can distort my body so much it's like looking in a funny mirror which sparks this thought 'Oh my god, I did get fat and frumpy' then goes from there.
OR
I will look at my body and think 'I'm still slender but way better because I have curves (little cute ones) ' and then walk around all proud.

Just funny to think back on all of these. Recognizing it and writing it down has always helped me process and see from an NON distorted view.




Besides these waves (which really aren't so bad) (especially being compared to being 70 pounds) January's been going rather well :) Me and Travis have been slowly redecorating with some new pieces of furniture and making our home even more homey :)

Oliver's getting more personality by the day and makes me so happy. Especially to watch Oliver and Travis together, my heart melts.