It almost seems like clockwork these days. I'll feel really good about myself for a week or two then have a few days to a week of just feeling so down on myself. It's been one of those. Those days are filled with regret over food, regret over that soup I had, or piece of bread I had. My clothes feeling different at work and I have to admit I am nervous to put my jeans on. It's been a little while since I've worn them but I'm waiting for a good feeling day to try them on.
I know that most of this isn't about the food. I know that it's been 9 days in a row working and I'm tired of being here. Which lets my mind wander and touch my stomach more and more. I know it's the start of a new year and season so I'm a little thrown by that. I want to get back into a normal work routine, and that's coming soon.
I know that my job has been making me feel really discouraged. I've never felt so under appreciated. I love my people I work with. I love working right next door to Travis. I love having the freedom of basically doing what I want at work. I do love working in a hotel. I know I shouldn't let the bad things get to me so much but it just has been wearing on me a lot. I'm ready for some days off.
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