Sampling

So today I was walking out of Barkley Haggen with my Starbucks in hand. The barista was surprised to see me because it had been so long since I had been in. I didn't really want to tell her the real reason (I'm not starving myself so I don't come for the samples anymore.)

Walking out I smiled to myself thinking of all the crazy habits I did almost every single day.

I would almost always at least leave an hour early before work to go 'eat.' I was way too afraid to eat at home and it was a battle to try not to grab a bite of something. I would also almost always save my banana to eat while I was driving to work. Hence why I always had an old banana peel in my car.

Some favorites of mine include:
-Hitting all the Haggens in town. First I would start at the Barkley one because they always had cheese samples, then I would go into the bulk to get some nuts, then the bakery where they had bread/pastry samples, then I would leave.
-Next was the old Haggen on the guide, they usually had good bread samples and sometimes cheese.
-The Sehome Haggen was hit or miss, I usually ate the most out of the bulk aisle here and they had bread here and there.
-I would also frequent the Market in Fairhaven when I worked at Paper Dreams. They always had a few chips and dip samples and breads.
-Sometimes I would hit the Greenhouse on the way to work because they would have samples, only on the weekends, usually a pumpkin bread or licorice.
-I would usually get coffee at Woods exclusively for the samples of their twists.
-On days off I sometimes would drive into Ferndale and stop at the Haggen there, it gave me something to do to distract me.

Funny thing is I thought I was distracting myself from the food but really it was literally all I was thinking about. I lost a lot of time I could have spent elsewhere doing these things.

I'm glad I can look back now and laugh and realize how troubling it was. I am very happy I don't have to do that anymore. I enjoy being at home with Travis before work. I enjoy not being hungry all the time and thinking about when my next 'safe food' will be.

I'm happy. I'm feeling healthy. My bad days are a lot less. Travis supports me on those days and I am the luckiest girl in the world.