Glance Back

Well I remember how I was feeling a year ago very well.

I remember thinking I was just fine at the weight I was at.

I remember at work my routine would be get a coffee before work and be so hungry that I would
count down the minutes until 6 when I ate my Luna bar.

I remember eating my Luna bar so slow and savoring every bite of it.

I remember being sad after I finished because I wouldn't allow myself to eat until 8:30

I remember at 8:30 all I allowed myself to eat was my Tupperware of baby carrots with some sort of condiment, usually a mustard (less calories).

I remember still being hungry after that.

I remember seeing coworkers eat pretzels and wanting them so bad.

I remember at 10 I would eat 2 sometimes only 1 rice cake, the lightly salted only.

I remember being exhausted getting off work and wanting to go home so bad and just be.

I remember Erica saying to me 'You're so thin that it looks like it hurts.'

I remember thinking to myself it does hurt but not letting myself really realize that because that would have been 'weakness'

I remember thinking there would be no way I would be happier or like myself if I had gained anymore weight than what I was at.

Well, here it is a year later, a LOT more weight on....
Happier
Healthier
Prettier
More energetic
NOT starving
Intuitively eating
Loving more


:)

Who would have guessed?

Sure as hell not me