I was reading Kim's blog and she wrote about her biggest insecurity, which happens to be mine as well, here's what she wrote, I think it's a great way of explaining how one thing can lead to another....
"I complain the most about my stomach. It is the source and destination of all anxiety. It is at the center of this endless, maddening loop: "I feel stressed out" leads to "I feel overwhelmed" leads to "I feel full" leads to "my stomach is full" leads to "my stomach feels bloated and fat and [insert any adjective that is not kind]" leads to "I feel stressed out"... "
Then she went on to this, which describes the disease perfectly...
"What's weird is that my arms were one of the main places I did body checks when I was really sick. You know, the ol' fingers-around-the-arm test to make sure I was "still skinny." This still doesn't make sense to me -- I was disgusted by the skinniess of my arms and wouldn't bear them to the public if you paid me, but I was also dead set against filling out in any way"
"You have to decide that you feel confident -- not wait to feel confident."
It's really hard to fight against this disease. A day at a time still.
"I'm starting to believe that the more we just accept our bodies as they are, instead of fighting, the easier and more natural all the eating issues will get. Anorexia thrives on criticism, after all."
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