So I found this new layout and I thought it would be a nice change.
I think I have challenged myself a lot over the last few weeks.
I have been rather more spontaneous than usual the last couple weeks. This is exhilarating and I feel like each time I'm doing something 'bad.' When really I'm just challenging my disordered thoughts, behaviors, rituals and routines.
Travis and I adventured to the mall on Monday then I went to Nimbus with my dad. After that I would have been content with going home but we ended up going on outside adventures starting at Casa Que Pasa, where I (ON MY OWN) ordered chips and salsa. Then we went to the Ranch Room then to Rumors for Karaoke. At home I had cereal and a great unexpected day.
Tuesday was our Super Burrito BBQ day. I baked some peanut butter cookies, put together Watermelon Basil cocktails and even made myself a burrito (complete with tortilla) and ate it. I didn't even thrown dish soap on it.
Later after going dancing that night, at home I even let myself have a mini burrito and some ice cream.
The next day was hard, yes, but I wanted to trooper through it. By the time I got off work I was feeling much better. We stayed up to watch Sherlock Holmes and I made myself a salad with the leftover BBQ stuff, it was excellent and I didn't feel like death after.
Wednesday at work my perception of my body was out of control. I truly did feel awful and like a failure. Today I feel drastically different. It's bizaar how fast it can change from day to day.
I just have to believe that it will be better the next day.
I think I have challenged myself a lot over the last few weeks.
I have been rather more spontaneous than usual the last couple weeks. This is exhilarating and I feel like each time I'm doing something 'bad.' When really I'm just challenging my disordered thoughts, behaviors, rituals and routines.
Travis and I adventured to the mall on Monday then I went to Nimbus with my dad. After that I would have been content with going home but we ended up going on outside adventures starting at Casa Que Pasa, where I (ON MY OWN) ordered chips and salsa. Then we went to the Ranch Room then to Rumors for Karaoke. At home I had cereal and a great unexpected day.
Tuesday was our Super Burrito BBQ day. I baked some peanut butter cookies, put together Watermelon Basil cocktails and even made myself a burrito (complete with tortilla) and ate it. I didn't even thrown dish soap on it.
Later after going dancing that night, at home I even let myself have a mini burrito and some ice cream.
The next day was hard, yes, but I wanted to trooper through it. By the time I got off work I was feeling much better. We stayed up to watch Sherlock Holmes and I made myself a salad with the leftover BBQ stuff, it was excellent and I didn't feel like death after.
Wednesday at work my perception of my body was out of control. I truly did feel awful and like a failure. Today I feel drastically different. It's bizaar how fast it can change from day to day.
I just have to believe that it will be better the next day.
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